Wednesday, July 30, 2008

This is stupid, as all things written in moments of emotion are, and I will probably delete it tomorrow. But it is amazing how much time someone can spend with you and how little he actually knows about you, or how much he thinks he knows about you that is wrong. And how he will misinterpret everything you say just to make him look and feel better. So here's about me if anyone cares. I don't expect to save the world, I just want to help out a few kids, and feel like I am making a difference in somebody's life. And yes it is a real job. I like my job. There are some things about it I don’t like. Most people have at least one thing they would change about their jobs. But overall, I really like my job. My boss is fabulous. Though I would like to get back into some journalism, which I am working on, because I find learning about new things all the time interesting. I hate politics. I write about politics with disgust. I care about people and politics is not about people. And honestly I don’t care whether or not people vote. It is a personal choice. My brother was a non-voter for years. And most of the time I question whether I should vote or not. Does it really matter, and why would I vote for people I can’t stand, especially when they are the only choices. I am not always late; in fact I am often early to things I think are important. And if someone tells me they would very much like me to be on time I will make an extra effort. I like a lot of sports, and sporting events. I don't like Maroon 5 at all, but I tolerate them for some friends' sake. I will buy Street Spirit from a homeless person occasionally. I actually find it an interesting publication. The rest of the time I try to refer them to a program like B.O.S.S. I definitely don't hold anything against them. Everyone has their own reasons for being where they are in their lives at the moment. Who am I to judge? They are probably decent people for the most part. I laugh at everything, especially myself. I think religion is a big mistake most of the time. It often creates more conflict then good. But I would like to think there is something else out there, but it is not the center of my life by far. I haven't done drugs in a long time, except for caffeine and alcohol. I absolutely hated The Secret. I thought it sounded a bit too much like a pyramid scheme. I am okay with weird, offensive humor; I grew up hearing it. I like to travel, but it is something I do for myself when I get a chance. I don't expect everyone else to be into it, or want to go where I want to go. And I would never harass anyone to go with me. I have plenty of friends who like to travel with me, and I also like traveling alone. I don't always remember dates unless I write them down. But I have an excellent memory otherwise. I can remember most events very clearly, but maybe not the precise date they happened on. I don't care if anyone remembers my birthday. That is why I always do something for myself. It's the one day I take to be truly selfish and do things just for me, and the friends who decide they want to come along. I love music with a passion. And I think I have incredibly good taste. I may not know all the facts about a band or even remember the name of the song, album, or the band itself, but it’s the music that is important. I have never actually listened to Sufjan Stevens, and as such don’t have an opinion about his music one way or another. I wish I had the time and money to go to more shows. Overall I am a completely (way to much maybe?) compromising and forgiving person. I don't expect apologies from people. Apologies are often insincere. What I do expect is behavior changes. That is how you know a person is actually sorry about what they've done. I try to be very honest with people, and often find myself in trouble by expecting the same from others. But I have told lies occasionally. Most notably when I used to cheat on spelling tests in third grade. And more recently when I said I don't think about the future. I constantly think about the future. But I also know that the future is constantly changing, so I try to be open to all possibilities and see what happens, but make decisions based on what I hope the outcome will be. I try to enjoy now as much as possible, no matter what the future might bring. And I am confident in myself and my ability to survive whatever life brings my way. I definitely don’t need a man to survive. I am independent and I like myself. I am okay with my body, but I wouldn’t mind losing a few pounds, not because of what other people think, but because I think I might feel a little healthier that way. I like to be active, and if I spend too much time sitting around it makes me unhappy. I am smart and funny when people around me allow the space for it. I am a good conversationalist if you try me. Just have a topic you really enjoy talking about. Most of all I think friendship is important, which is probably why I have more friends then I can actually spend quality time with. That is all for now.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Here is my life in a nut shell:

Have a great idea, start working on it, get distracted by some other great idea (or sometimes just an okay one), a month goes by and nothing is done. Since shortly after my last post, not quite a month ago, I have had a slew of things that I have wanted to write about, some of them started, some not, but none finished. Needless to say there have been many distractions this month. Interesting articles I read inspired most of the things I wanted to write about. So instead of taking the time to write out a commentary on every topic, I'm just going to list all the articles, which you should read, with just a sentence or two to accompany them. That way at least I have posted something. Maybe later I will come back and expand upon certain themes, but probably not.

"Senate Approves Bill to Broaden Wiretap Powers"
(NYT) This is one of my favorite parts: "There is nothing to fear in the bill, said Senator Christopher S. Bond, the Missouri Republican who was a lead negotiator, 'unless you have Al Qaeda on your speed dial.'" Hey, I thought he was just the pizza guy.

"Midwest floods spotlight decrepit infrastructure" (Reuters) What the government's job again? Oh yeah, war. We don't need functioning roads, bridges, or anything like that anyway.

"House of Cards: You thought the housing crisis was bad? You ain’t seen nothing yet." (LA CityBeat) Something to think about.

"Google Told to Turn Over User Data of YouTube" (NYT) To Tube or not to Tube.

"Bush-Led 'Disaster Capitalism' Exploits Worldwide Misery to Make a Buck"
(Alternet) Naomi Klein is always a good read and I find this piece particularly interesting.

"Fuel for Inequality" (NYT) Who would have thought, it's the poor getting screwed again. Excellent op-ed, brings up a lot of points not much heard in the din about oil prices.

I think that's enough for right now. I will try not to get so distracted in the future.